My two fears

I have two fears in this life. I have a fear of failing and I have a fear of falling. My fear of falling should never be confused with a fear of heights. In fact I have no problem with climbing to the top of the Empire State Building and looking around but put me on a kiddie roller coaster and it is a whole other ball game. My fear of falling also has to do with the fact that I have no control over myself as I fall.

This brings up the root issue of my fears; it is simply control. When I fail a task I am no longer in control of that task. This has always motivated me to do my best at any given task because I never wanted to face those fears. The year 2012 was very hard for me because not only did I have to confront those fears once, I had to do it three times. I still was not successful on the third attempt and instead of making easier for me to attempt the task a fourth time it has crippled me. For all of 2013 I have stayed away but I am going to start preparing myself to jump back in the race come April of 2014. Hopefully while I am jumping I do not fall!!